Salt and Light

I have been meaning to write about Sunday for a few days now...
I finally decided to start going to Denver Community church and this was a perfect Sunday to be a part of that community. I sat amazed as God just spoke so directly to my heart. The pastor spoke from the passage in Matthew about being salt and light. Salt is meant to preserve, heal, or destroy. Its meaning in this context is uncertain however I related so well with each of these meanings.
In our everyday encounters with people we can bring all of these things. We can be a preservation of God's promises, a healing ointment for those who are hurting, and a destructive force to the walls that years of hurt have built up in peoples' lives.

Light is the opposite of darkness. Wherever we are we can be a light. A joy. Put a smile on someones face.

We are to be drastically different. When I think about my day to day and how many times I fall short of being different I am reminded that being Salt and Light is not a one man job but it is a job for a community of believers. If it were just me there would be no room to fail. But a community allows for failure and offers a hand to pull me up when I do.

The ironic thing about all of this is what happened while I was taking notes.
I flipped my page to write on the back of it and discovered some things a friend had jotted down for me a few months ago at a time when I had ended a relationship. I was hurting and questioning my own standards. I wrote down things that I wanted to do to discover healing as well as things that I desired in the future. I have often thought about these lists and these standards and wondered if I have set the bar too high. But Sunday as I came across this I was amazed to see how each act of healing had taken place in my heart without even knowing. And each thing that was on my list of desires/standards for future relationships was not unatainable but has been shown to me as attainable and worth waiting for.

God is so faithful and loves me more than I even know. I know that the places I have come from, the love and the trials I have been through only point me closer to his endless love for me.

Now I get to share that gracious love with others through my community.

booty

So today as I was walking out of the mall for my lunch break, I saw this guy blatently checking out this women's hind quarters. As in he was leaned forward with his head turned as she walked by. I made certain to make eye contact with him gave him "the look", and chuckled as I walked by. At least be a little more discrete.

I love life right now. I am free to just be whoever I want and do whatever I want. It is truly how I want to live my life, in complete freedom. Free-spirited. I am learning so much about who I am and about those around me. I am surrounded by some really incredible people.

Current events:
1. Mean Girls- I'm addicted to this movie right now.
2. I got a package in the mail this week that made my week!
3. I got a gym membership..."workin' on my fitness. he's my witness"

(I am still trying to get back into this blogging thing. Deepness will come at some point)

Adjustments.

I have been sewing a ton. There is something so exciting about finding the beauty in something that most people would walk by and never think twice about. It seems like all the adjusting I am doing on my garments is parallel to the adjusting that is going on in my own life. (deep isn't it).
I recently moved to Colorado to start something new. I am living in a new town, with brand new people, a new job, and a new church. I am done with school which I have done for the past 18 years of my life. My friends are scattered everywhere. But I have an overwhelming sense of home here. It is like all of my passions just fit perfectly into this environment. I mean I can watch The Hills whenever I want. What more could I ask for? But in all honesty I could not ask for a better place to be. I feel like I am experiencing a life few get to experience because they are married(or even dating for that matter) or pursuing an intense carrier or they are living alone. I feel so blessed. I am living with 4 incredible women who Love the Lord. And we just have a blast together. There is no pressure to be in a relationship which is what I felt all the time back home. And I just feel so free.
Don't get me wrong I miss so many people that are part of my life but I am trusting that they are experiencing life to the fullest where they are at as well. But I miss you. I do.

In other news I bought two rugs at Urban and cut them into squares and circles. Cool idea except I am not sure if the day will come when they stop shedding fuzzies on the ground.

Next project: Corduroy trousers.