Change

Denver.

It is a really great city to live. Easy to access. Young, fun people. Laid back/liberal. Perfect climate. Mountains. I could probablly go on for quite a while about why this city is so great, however I find all things things fall short in comparison to having friends. Not friends that you go out with or friends that you go skiing with. I am talking about the friends that call you just to say hi. The freinds that knows when you are sick and bring you a cup of tomato soup spritzed with cheddar cheese. Consistant, true friends. The hard part is that everyone is in such a transition that we rarely take the time to notice eachother or ask the hard questions.

Josh.

He deals with these things so differently than I do. He is a self acclaimed closet introvert. I envy the fact that when he has an entire day to himself he thrives. I find myself moping and depressed. Longing for someone that wants to grab coffee with me. And I don't even like coffee. Josh is my best friend but it is those girls that are going to help me work through things that even the best of guys can't understand.

Me

This loneliness affects me in so many ways. Spiritually, emotionally, and even physically. I tried running today with Josh and started freaking out. He didn't get it. He can't. Who I was in college is so different than who I am now. I was uninhibited and with few obligations. Now I work 40 hours a week, I am far away from home, I'm not surrounded by a group of crazy soccer players. Life has changed and I just want to feel carefree again. I want to feel like I am not going to work to pay bills but that I am going to work for the joy of it. I want change. How do I find that change? (maybe I should vote for Obama.)